End of Day Thirty

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Hi everyone, I apologise for the late updates but I have been super busy as per usual.

This was my in between mediocre day, where I was reducing my calorie intake from CRAZY over to the normal and then I will reduce it back down to the 1000-1400 mark.

Here is my update then for 28/09/14:

Breakfast: Green tea 1kcal, Kiwi fruit 44kcal.

Total: 45kcal.

Lunch: Homemade tomato soup 60kcal, birdseye fish fingers 153kcal, tartar sauce 22kcal.

Total: 236kcal.

Tea: Brown pasta 255kcal, frozen sweetcorn 115kcal, frozen peppers 29kcal, tomato and mascarpone sauce 297kcal (how this is possible for sauce I don’t know), fried chicken 106kcal.

Total: 857kcal.

Snacks: Raspberries 3kcal, laughing cow light blue cheese triangle 25kcal, 2x jammie dodgers 150kcal, malt fruit loaf 300kcal, gala apple 47kcal, spearmint chewing gum 15kcal, 4x mints 40kcal.

Total: 580kcal.

Overall input was 1718kcal and I walked 5 miles burning 284kcal= 1434kcal.

Not a bad day overall.

Jessicana xo

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End of Days Twenty-Eight and Twenty-Nine

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Hi everyone,

It has taken me real courage and strength to upload these updates and as you can see, I have had a SERIOUS bingle FILLED two days. I am seriously annoyed at myself because I have probably reversed all of my hard work for the past thirty-odd days. How/why did I do it, you might ask. Well because I have been pretty depressed recently, I had a cold and (tmi) but I was due on. These are no real excuses why I decided to 3,000 calories in one day on a sausage roll, doritos, hot chocolate, a bakewell tart for breakfast, 8 crackers throughout the day, ICE CREAM and a million raisins. The thing is, it’s already had an affect- I feel more bloated like I used to before. I’m not sure what happened, just whatever I ate/drank was not enough? I just kept going and the day after was worse because I found cake icing and ate that. So glad I’m going back to university today where if I have a binge session, it’s limited because I have hardly any food! I need to stop coming home when I’m upset too- it’s ridiculous.

Anyway, please excuse me but I’m not going to dwell on these two days as I am so ashamed and am starting off fresh today. I am going to walk 4 miles from the train station to my house to get back at myself for it. Hopefully, it will be a better day and I won’t give in to temptation like I have done for the past two days.

This is a formal apology to my body and I’m going to get back on track today! No alcohol, more fruit&veg, more water, more motivational videos and thinspo, more university work and hopefully a better body!

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Seven

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Hello everyone,

Today was slightly better but still not great. I am off home tomorrow so hopefully my weekend will be healthier- I am determined to make it so, after having looked at some hardcore thinspo.

Today was really hard and there were multiple times where I hate to refuse food and refuse to go into shops. In the morning my friend wanted to go into the shop for breakfast and I originally agreed, thinking I would get something too but NO my inner thin person spoke to me and refused to let me- thank goodness. She came out with 5 cookies and I didn’t even enter the store.

Secondly at lunch, my friends were craving Mcdonalds so I went into the restaurant and watched as everyone around me devoured chips and burgers and I simply ordered a cup of tea. The man behind the counter couldn’t even understand that I didn’t want any food- what the hell. Anyway, I watched her eat a cheeseburger, six chicken nuggets, chips and a chocolate milkshake- thing is, she’s skinny so where is the fairness in that? I also realised that I walked 7 miles today and am now, obviously, shattered.

Here is my update for today (25/09/14):

Breakfast: 4 Cream crackers 140kcal, marmite 9kcal, butter 72kcal, nectarine 70kcal.

Total: 291kcal. (In fairness, I ate these crackers across a four hour period)

Lunch: 1 large raw carrot 54kcal.

Total: 54kcal.

Tea: 1 Fish shop sausage 235kcal, 1 portion of chips 655kcal, mango yogurt 203kcal.

Total: 1,093kcal.

Snacks: Tea with milk 10kcal, 2 jammie dodgers 150kcal, extra strong mints 30kcal.

Total: 190kcal.

Overall input was 1,626kcal- exercise of 439kcal burnt= 1,187kcal.

Actually not too bad! I just want to only be eating that amount without having to exercise to get it down. I don’t agree with eating calories you burnt from exercise- pointless? Anyway, quite proud of how little I did eat compared to my friends! Now for some more thinspo and bed.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Six

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Today (24/09/14) was possibly one of the worst days of my life and I feel like this blog has just turned into me ranting about my life. I need to let it out somewhere though and this seems to be the best place. I was so hungover I barely did anything except sleep and eat.

Here is the update:

Breakfast: 1 Nectarine 70kcal.

Total: 70kcal.

Lunch: *Raspberry Crumble* Granulated sugar 160kcal, plain flour 68kcal, butter 110kcal, frozen raspberries 66kcal.

Total: 404kcal.

Tea: CHINESE TAKEAWAY AGAIN- Sweet and sour chicken with rice 567kcal, 3x mini spring rolls 237kcal, Onken mango and passionfruit yogurt 203kcal.

Total: 1,007kcal.

Snacks: Mini cheddars 129kcal, cherry tomatoes 20kcal, frozen sweetcorn 144kcal, jammie dodgers 150kcal.

Total: 443kcal.

Overall input was 1,924kcal!

AWFUL. All of this weight I’ve lost is just going to come piling back on unless I do something SOON. Tomorrow? Think I need to look at some serious thinspo.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Five

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Hello everyone,

Here is my update for 23/09/14. A pretty good day but then I drank alcohol. However, I was sick SO MUCH from the alcohol and so probably next to none of this is still in my body. I have realised that dieting and drinking alcohol just cannot go together and I’m as good as done with drinking. I don’t even like clubbing that much so I’m going to just find something else to do with my spare time- like a society or UNI WORK! I can’t believe I was sick and it was so much. It did kind of make me think ‘good’ though because it meant all the toxins and calories were no longer in my body.

This morning I noticed my flat mates looking at my stomach and I think I’ve definitely lost weight. They were looking at it with an almost concerned look on their face. I couldn’t be happier. I think the major factor that’s contributed to my weight loss is the swimming. I am currently 10st 10lb. I ALWAYS write 11 just in habit, how bad. I am no longer 11 and I never want to be again- wow that’s a pretty good feeling!

Anyway here is the update for 24/09/14:

Breakfast: Nectarine 70kcal.

Total: 70kcal.

Lunch: Cod fish fingers 150kcal, large carrot 54kcal, low fat houmous 90kcal, barbecue sauce 19kcal.

Total: 311kcal.

Dinner: Chilli con carne 150kcal, Brown rice 152kcal, barbecue sauce 21kcal.

Total: 323kcal.

Snacks: Bakewell tart 215kcal, Mango chunks 75kcal, club chocolate bar 118kcal. THEN 880kcal of white wine.

Total: 1288kcal.

I swam 64 lengths in the mornng burning 402 calories and walked about 3 miles 182kcal.

So my overall intake for the day was 1992-584=1408kcal.

But, as I said, I was sick and I’m pretty sure all of my dinner and the wine came up. I feel so rough now though and am going back to bed.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Four

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Hello lovelies,

Actually an update on the day I completed it and it was a terrible day, as the past few days have also been! I really need to get my act together with this but it’s literally impossible when I go out and drink so many times a week- I’m going out tomorrow too. I could not drink but I wouldn’t have as good a night as when I do drink so that’s not really an option, we’ll see. I managed to cut down on what I ate whilst drunk yesterday so maybe there is hope. I will exercise properly tomorrow too with swimming and walking.

Update for 22/09/14:

Breakfast: Nectarine 70kcal.

Total: 70kcal.

Lunch: Pesto Chicken Sandwich 315kcal (I don’t understand how a light choices option is still over 300 calories? This world has gone mad!), low fat houmous 90kcal, cucumber 16kcal, cherry tomatoes 24kcal, carrot stick 5kcal.

Total: 450kcal.

Tea: SIX Chinese hoisin duck pancakes 570kcal, Sweet and sour chicken with rice 567kcal, Sweet and sour chicken balls 300kcal.

Total: 1,437kcal!!

Snacks: Spearmint gum 7kcal.

Total: 7kcal.

Overall total input was 1,964kcal- 242kcal walking= 1722kcal.

Not overly bad, I shouldn’t put weight on from this but I probably will. It’s weigh-in day in our house tomorrow so we’ll see how I have done compared to the others.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Three

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Hey everyone,

Sorry this one is late, I have been super busy recently with uni!

Breakfast: 0kcal.

Total: 0kcal.

Lunch: *Raspberry Crumble* Frozen raspberies 28kcal, Butter 55kcal, Granulated sugar 96kcal, White plain flour 102kcal.

Total: 281kcal.

Tea: Chilli con carne 150kcal, Brown rice 152kcal, barbecue sauce 21kcal, bakewell tart 215kcal.

Total: 538kcal.

Snacks: Frozen mango 66kcal, Cherry tomatoes 40kcal, gala apple 47kcal, club chocolate bar 118kcal, sparking diet lemonade 2kcal, cucumber 11kcal.

THEN I WENT OUT AND ATE RIDICULOUS CALORIES :-(.

A bottle of white wine 550kcal and half a chicken pizza 348kcal.

Total: 898kcal.

So my total input was 2,001kcal. So bad, I don’t even have any excuses- I danced for a solid 4 hours though so I probably burnt off calories then.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Two

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Hello lovelies,

Here is my update for yesterday (20/09/14) which makes it day TWENTY-TWO! Ah I’m  so proud of myself :-). I know I wouldn’t be keeping up with this diet if it wasn’t for this blog so I thank each and every person to visits/likes/reblogs my posts!

Yesterday was a mediocre day:

Breakfast: 1 gala apple 47kcal.

Total: 47kcal.

Lunch: Birdseye fish fingers 180kcal, Tomato ketchup 27kcal, Cherry bakewell tart 215kcal.

Total: 422kcal.

Tea: Chilli con carne 150kcal, Brown rice 152kcal, barbecue sauce 21kcal, a WHOLE big bar of Milky Bar White Chocolate Bar 550kcal.

Total: 873kcal.

Snacks: Frozen mango chunks 20kcal, Cranberry and Raspberry Juice 100kcal.

Total: 120kcal.

Exercise- 64 lengths swimming burnt 333kcal.

Total input: 1,462-333= 1,129kcal.

Not bad, under 1,200 so should be still losing some decent weight :-).

Jessicana xo

Influences on energy balance

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Recently in my lectures we have been doing about obesity. They have argued that obesity is a Long Term Condition and thus needs management plans and treating. I agree with the fact that obesity needs managing and helping to treat but I find it hard to agree that it is a Long Term Condition because I think obesity is curable, whereas Long Term Conditions are not. What I mean as a Long Term Condition is an illness that someone lives with for a long time, requires management and is incurable. Some people may have obesity for a long time, it DOES require management but I think it is curable.

Another thing they showed us was the influences on energy balance (Jebb 2006) and a construct of an obesity system map:

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This was the simplest one I could find, simply highlighting the different influences on obesity. Many people believe it is a strictly biological construct but it isn’t, there are complex behavioural and societal roles involved.

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Here is a slightly more complicated one highlighting the organisations also to blame.

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And another one highlighting the influences.

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I found this picture whilst browsing google and the caption was ‘Obese Nation’. I think this picture is terrifying. The tiny girl next to him will be influenced by his intake and there is nothing that he or she can do about it without him taking action to lose weight. He may not even be able to lose weight due to other long term conditions he may have like arthritis or respiratory problems, which is a completely different topic.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-One

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Hello everyone, I think I’m going to stop apologising for these always being late as I’m sure the majority of you know that trying to post things everyday is very demanding on life, especially now that I am in lectures 9-4 most days. Just know that I continuously log my food throughout the day, regardless of my posting- it has become quite an obsession and yesterday when my phone didn’t work, I found it really hard to eat and not track what I was eating.

Now that I am twenty-one days into my lifestyle change, I realise that in the last few days, myself and other people have been noticing me. I have had comments like “You look so thin from the back”, “are you eating?” and “you’re definitely going to pull tonight”. These are all comments that I never used to get. Never have I been asked if I am not eating before, totally out of context? I think it’s a compliment, especially as I am eating as you can see from my hideous day yesterday which I will explain now.

Yesterday, was one of my worst days of my lifestyle change so far for many reasons. Firstly, I had a splitting headache for the majority of the day and I am not sure why. It could have potentially been due to my low blood sugar, a lack of water intake or perhaps heat or stress. I realise now that my coping strategy when I get a headache is to eat! I ate so much and as we were going out clubbing in the evening, I had a **** it approach to food and yesterday was the first time I felt this, my guilt left me.

Secondly, I drank alcohol prior to going out and around forty-five minutes into it I felt an overwhelming sense of despair and sadness. I felt that it was pointless me going out, pointless me even still being awake, I decided I hated clubs and just wanted to go to bed. I sat there, staring into space with my friends asking what was wrong when I finally blurted out ‘there’s something wrong with me’. Now. I am not sure where this has come from but for the past week or so now, I have felt quite depressed. I have not struggled with the lack of eating- like I used to when I experienced dieting before, I have often found myself going from completely normal and happy to sadness the next, in a split second- like a mood swing? A total change of personality, perhaps due to my Gemini horoscope- no.

I ended up staying in, eating ice-cream and chocolate and then going to bed at 11pm. How awful. I cried to my other house mates and to myself in the bathroom. My other house mates think I’m under a lot of pressure and I don’t have to go out all the time. I definitely don’t enjoy meeting guys in clubs, it is NOT my thing and I guess it is hard when everyone else is doing this and it’s seen as the norm. I just don’t like it, I see it as pointless and pretty disgusting to be honest. Don’t get me wrong, if you do it that’s fine- I have done it in the past three times or so, so I completely understand but after having had a recent boyfriend I just don’t want to do it. The dancing is fun and staying up late is fun but the drinking alcohol and kissing boys is not. I went out sober before and that’s probably the best night I had out! I think that’s what I’m going to do.

 This is post is now quite long and personal so I apologise for that! I just felt like I needed to get some things off my chest. My friends also think I’m depressed and wonder where the old me has gone. It’s seriously getting me down.

I don’t think that my lifestyle change/diet is the cause of these issues, I think it just coincidentally happened at the same time, because I feel amazing and can feel the difference in thinness on my waist and on my thighs and I’m not stopping, regardless of this bad day.

Here is my update for 20/09/14:

Breakfast: Frozen raspberries 22kcal, frozen mango chunks 65kcal.

Total: 87kcal.

Lunch: Large raw carrot 52kcal, tesco low fat houmous 90kcal, cherry bakewell tart 215kcal.

Total: 357kcal.

Tea: Vegetarian Bean Burger 225kcal, Brown rice 80kcal, Frozen sweetcorn 115kcal.

Total: 420kcal.

Snacks: Milk Chocolate square 54kcal, Spearmint chewing gum 7kcal, Tesco profiteroles 170kcal, malt fruit loaf 174kcal, club fruit chocolate bar 118kcal, 1 krackawheat 34kcal, ice cream eton mess 150kcal, wispa chocolate bar 167kcal, Cherry Sourz alcohol 309kcal, Raspberry Cidre 190kcal.

Total: 1,373kcal. (I forgot 2 more krackawheats- +68kcal.)= 1441kcal.

Overall total input: 2,305kcal.

I did walk probably two miles or so today but I am not including that as it doesn’t matter. What matters is how awful today was! Over 2,300 kcals! Oh well, today I will have a fast and drink lots of water, perhaps go swimming too. I might go swimming but do all easy stroke- breast stroke. Haha.

Jessicana xo