Reward Time- Why not?

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Today I bought myself a reward with my Christmas money for losing my Christmas weight. I am 10st 7 today which is just great! I am so happy.

A totally NON-FOOD and all- appearance reward. A new earring for my tragus piercing:

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Day 5 of 2015- 35 days of 1200 calories

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Hello friends! It has been a while (as usual- I’m sorry blah blah, the usual). I’m really happy to welcome a lot new followers though! Welcome lovelies! I hope you like my blog and so now I’ve got a lot more of you, I feel obliged to post more so here we go :). Maybe a new resolution of mine to blog more? Even though I haven’t been actually blogging I have been taking a lot of pictures of my food because I think it looks very healthy and healthy = beautiful. Doesn’t it?

I have some new lovelies! I’m going to New York in February! Can you believe it? I’ve never even been to America so how incredible is that? NEW YORK CITYYYYYYY. The amount of money I’m planning on spending is surreal but before the trip, I need to lose this christmas weight and some additional if I can. I am here with a new motive and I’m going to TRY and maintain this diet regardless of mum keeping on saying ‘I don’t think you’re eating enough to maintain someone of your age’. Ha. Am I dead? No. Then I’m doing just fine. My issue is that it is the holiday still for me and I am LAZY. I can’t seem to find motivation to get up and exercise so I am just super restricting my food intake.

I do have some more good news, I went to our New Years Eve family party as I always do and I was the thinnest I have been in years. Hey, maybe I’ll do a before and after picture- Here we go:

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These photos are me on 31st December 2013. Look at those rolls and I’m standing up straight. I have always suffered from these and I’m feeling a bit sick uploading them because it is so embarrassing. THIS is RAW motivation people!

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Actually looking at these pictures from the 31st December 2014, I haven’t done that well but considering I only changed my lifestyle in September 2014, that was a continued 8 months of being unhealthy. I am sorry that there are no face shots but I’m not comfortable with disclosing who I am just yet. If you knew who I am it is pretty obvious from the pictures and the smile you can see if the first picture above.

Anyway I weighed myself at the party here and baring in mind I had just eaten A LOT of party food but no alcohol, I was 10stone 12. Yes I’m sorry guys but that means I’ve put on a hefty 8lbs from my lowest weight of 10st 4 but don’t worry I’m back on track, weighing 10st 8 now.

If you’re wondering if it’s just the dress that has made me look like this, want to see a picture of me wearing the dress in December 2013 in November 2014? Here ya go:

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Perfect blog picture there on the right and yes, we are drunk ;). I’m a student, forgive me? But I don’t know about you but I think I have lost weight visibly. Oh well a lot more to go.

Anyway enough pictures of me and more pictures of MY FOOD. I have been eating super healthy and I’m feeling the fat slowly melting away as my stomach grumbles (or so I like to think!)

Breakfasts:/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3315.jpgThis is a bowl of Quakers Oatso Simple Big Bowl with 40ml of semi-skimmed milk, 80ml of water and a sprinkle of cinnamon. 206kcal./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3346.jpgThis is a bowl of Harvest Morn Golden Syrup Instant Oat Cereal with 120ml of water, one small chopped banana and 5g of brown sugar. 236kcal.

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A beautiful close up, ha./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3352.jpgThis was today and I couldn’t resist the nutella that Mum bought. FFS. This is one slice of brown bread with 15g of nutella and a small banana. 243kcal. I think the idea is small amounts of whatever it is you want, and I didn’t exactly scrimp on the nutella. It is a lot of calories just for 15g though- 81!

Lunches:

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3341.jpgThis was delicious! I think I have breakfasts and lunches down to a tea! (Get it? ;)) They’re always so nice! Just no/low carbohydrates! This is Piri piri chicken chunks with lettuce leaves, cucumber, cooked beetroot and Pizza Express Basil pesto salad dressing. 194kcal.IMG_3336One of my favourites if I want a hot lunch! Fish fingers (x3), please ignore the serving suggestion of 4 on the box it is an absolute joke. Who can fit that in a single sandwich, let alone eat them all? Ridiculous! Just shows the changes happening in our world. Of course Birdseye want you to eat 4 so that you have to buy more quicker! A JOKE. Don’t fall for these scamming companies. Regardless, I do love their fish fingers. 3 cod birdseye fish fingers with 7.5g of tar tar sauce spread on top with birdseye garden peas. 240kcal. /home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3348.jpgI’m really into these picky lunches at the moment. They look delicious on the plate and look like loads! It takes me a while to eat too as I savour every bite. This is 3 slices of beef pastrami, 7 cherry tomatoes (I ate one), one large cooked beetroot, a gala apple and a small amount of fruit smoothie. 294kcal./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3353.jpgThis was today and I now have a NEW FAVOURITE. Peanut butter on rice cakes. Be careful with the peanut butter though as this tiny amount was something ridiculous like 93 calories!! Peanut butter on two rice cakes, cucumber, cooked beetroot, cherry tomatoes and one slice of beef pastrami (there was none left). 229kcal.

Snack:/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3349.jpgThis was the tiny bit of fruit cake that I allowed myself to eat on the second day of my diet. Do you want to guess how many calories it was? I’m serious, I weighed it and everything. 170… I’m not kidding. ONE HUNDRED AND SEVENTY CALORIES FOR THE TINIEST BIT OF FRUIT CAKE I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE AND WHO CAN HONESTLY SAY THIS IS THE PORTION SIZE THEY GO FOR WHEN THEY EAT CAKE? It wasn’t even worth it because I was ABSOLUTELY STARVING come bedtime because of this stupid cake that I could have used this calories so much more wisely. I will not make the same mistake again.

Teas:

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If you want an example of what my days have been like recently, here you go! I did well today and it had to be 1,146kcal because I went over by 54 yesterday at 1254 calories but I managed to keep under it today and make up for that. I do it so precise, I will not enjoy the day when I make a mistake. It is becoming a bit of an obsession, myfitnesspal is telling me that I have logged in for 137 days in a row which means, yes, I calculated ALL of my days over the christmas period and new years. So, I can tell you that on Christmas day as a rough over-estimate, I ate 4000calories. I know, a nightmare but I was looking up the average intake for someone on Christmas Day and it was 6000 calories. I don’t know HOW (if they do) people manage that. I felt absolutely disgusting on 4000, let alone more. I will maybe show you what I ate but also, maybe now. I can tell you, however, that I ate basically 800 calories worth of stuffing, so vegetarianism? Maybeeeeee not.

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I just thought I would show you guys this. The girl on the left has a body CREEPILY similar to mine and the body on the right is pretty much my dream body. That thigh gap… She did lose all of her boobs though, so maybe the middle weight is the best. I’d certainly be happy with it.

It’s nice to be back and even lovelier to see new faces,

Bye for now,

Jessicana xo

Want want want

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Could this scene be any more perfect? I wish I was her. I miss the sun in these cold winter months and I wish I looked THIS hot in a bikini.

She has quite a similar shaped body to mine- quite hour glass with around a C cup boobs and curvaceous thighs. How I will pray and work to get her body! Come on Jess! Do it for you!!

Jessicana xo

Tips for NOT eating (much) on Christmas Day!

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As you all know, it is Christmas tomorrow and that for me (and most other people) means food, family and fun. I want to concentrate more on the family and fun parts of those three. Christmas Day is not an excuse to eat everything in sight. I have been researching for the past few weeks on how to overcome the issue of eating too much on Christmas.

No one likes the feeling of being bloated and having eaten so much they feel like they are going to explode so why do we do it? Is it just because it is in front of us? Is it for our family or parents who have slaved for hours prepared vegetables and meat for YOUR benefit. Benefit? No. It is no benefit. It’s to your detriment.

I have compiled a list of hints and tips that I will be following for tomorrow so that although I will eat a lot, I will eat less than I otherwise would have. I will put them in a constructed order too, to show you what my ‘plan’ and routine will be.

1. I will EAT breakfast- this is a good idea (honest)! I will probably eat porridge/oatmeal with raspberries and almond extract which is my absolute favourite at the moment as it tastes just like marzipan which is my arch nemesis in terms of cravings and gluttony.

2. I will drink green and peppermint tea throughout the day. The green tea will increase the speed of my metabolism, in the hope of digesting any bad foods I have eaten quicker. The peppermint tea will act as a mild laxative, acting on my bowel walls to contract and move the food faster through my body. I also find that peppermint decreases my appetite and hence, I will drink it after breakfast, the christmas dinner and any other snacks.

3. Stay away from alcohol and other high calorie beverages. I know this is hard (I’m a student- I KNOW). This has been the cause of all of my weight gain which I then had to lose again. I vow right now that I won’t be drinking any alcohol tomorrow, nor ‘nice’ drinks like J20 or cokes or anything. NO. I was lucky enough to find a 1 calorie per 330ml of ginger beer that I will be drinking throughout the day as well as water and my teas! This will save me 500 calories at least, opposed to years before.

4. Stay away from the chocolates and crisps. These two are the main culprits for high calorie intake on christmas. Even when people are full to beyond belief, they still feel the need to gorge on a ridiculous amount of crisps and chocolate. I would know- I have done this EVERY year up till now. So now, all I can imagine is the years of damage I have done to my body and it makes me so angry. How could I be so ridiculous? No one likes a girl who weighs 11stone 5lbs at 5ft 5! (My highest weight). I neglected my body and now I need to apologise to it by eating good things. As a substitute to chocolate I will be eating nuts which may be high calorie but are full of good nutrients. As a substitute for crisps I will be eating vegetables dipped in various dips which (of course) are also a lot healthier. I will be keeping all of these snacks to a minimum though in preparation for…

5. I’m sitting at the end, in the corner of our big table for dinner, slightly out of eyes view of everyone and slightly away from the HUGE bowl that will inevitably sit on the table FILLED with roast potatoes. Not eating any. I swear, now. I am not eating ANY potatoes because they are the most unhealthy thing on the menu in our house. If anyone disagrees then please let me know.

6. Fill your plate with VEGETABLES and TURKEY/PROTEIN. I am staying clear of the roast potatoes BIG time! I am going to take a photograph of my plate tomorrow in the hope it will motivate me and also so that I can record the calories at the end of the day and upload them to here like I said I would.

7. Have one pudding or one serving of pudding. I don’t know about anyone else but in my house, tomorrow, there will probably be at least five different puddings available. There is christmas pudding, lemon mousse, sticky toffee pudding, trifle and pavlova. So FIVE! That’s not even including the christmas cake. That is ridiculous considering there are only eleven of us adults eating it. Hopefully a lot of it will be taken home by my family and it won’t be lingering in my house. I have just remembered too we have a bunch of other frozen desserts in the freezer too- banoffee pie, lemon cheesecake, after eight ice cream and clotted cream ice cream. Bloody hell. Kill me.

8. Always have a drink of some kind near you, it’ll keep your mouth stimulated and people won’t suspect anything.

9. If the worst happens and people question why you aren’t eating anything then just say you don’t feel well. That’s my plan.

10. Make yourself look pretty and wear tight clothes. No one wants a food baby in a tight skirt or dress. Maybe I’ll show you a picture of me if you’re lucky ;-).

11. Weigh yourself throughout the day, that’ll stop you!

12. Encourage other people to eat more, or offer them food. I will be helping my mum in the kitchen, in the hope of it putting me off eating. Especially if I chew gum, which I will be.

13. Wait for your stomach to rumble before eating anything after christmas dinner. If your body wants more food, it will tell you so just wait for the signal!

Anyway, there are 13 (unlucky for some) tips to get you through Christmas day and just remember eating doesn’t equal happiness. You can have a lovely fun filled family orientated day without food being a buzz killer for you. So maintain your weight loss and don’t be tricked into eating the ‘average’ 6000 calories that every talks about eating.

Good luck,

Jessicana xo

Sorry

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What can I say? I completely lied to you all about doing a blog everyday because I have simply not had any time to really write on here.

Also, I’m ashamed. I haven’t done very well with my eating, recently. I’ve been ok, I’m currently 10st 6lbs so I haven’t put all the weight I have lost back on but now that it is Christmas, I fear it will come back. I’m quite scared and every time I eat something, the numbers flicker in my brain telling me not to eat that it’s 200 calories! That’ll add a cm to you knees again, well done. You fat bitch.

It’s christmas tomorrow and I’ve been trying to search for some good christmas tips about not eating but I can hardly find any so my next blog post is going to discuss what I have found to help myself and to help you guys resist the food that will be put under your nose tomorrow. I don’t want to have to go through the pain of dieting again, just for the sake of a few sausage rolls and ice cream. F**k that!

Jessicana xo

I’m back for the month :)

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Okay I am back and I NEED to be back!

As you know, I did so well with my weightloss over the past few months but if the last two weeks I feel like I have put all of the weight back on, I haven’t- I’m 10st 8lb but that’s not what it was before. With a lowest weight of 10st 4lb I was feeling amazing and so much more confident.

Today I’m on 1,123kcal and I’ll be attempting to give you daily updates again! I have a few ideas up my sleeve for blog and motivational posts and I really need to get back into looking at thinspo because THAT is what helped me.

Off I am too go look at some victoria secret models!

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End of Day Ninety-two (If I’d been carrying on daily blogging)

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This is my first update in months everyone, and I’m sorry for that but my life is just too busy to keep daily blogging but don’t worry- I break up for christmas soon and my blog will be back up and running with blogs most days, including my daily intake on CHRISTMAS DAY. That will be my motivation for not eating much- the fact it will ALL be blogged on here for you lovelies to see.

 

As you can see from the scales above- my weight is still going down. This is the lowest it’s been and I’m delighted but am still not satisfied. I only stick to 1200 calories a day when I’m working so 4 days a week but when I spend days at home I eat ridiculous amounts. My lifestyle has changed rapidly though- when I go out to eat, I never use it as an excuse to eat anymore. Last night I went to Nandos (not pizza hut or mcdonald’s) and ate butterfly chicken with macho peas, followed by toffee apple frozen yogurt- this came in at 650calories which was quite a lot but compared to what I would’ve eaten had I gone elsewhere, was so good. I didn’t even get chips? IMG_2764.JPGHere is my lunch today- homemade soup and the crackers have coronation tuna and cucumber slices on. It was delicious. I wanted it to be quite light as I am off out bridesmaid dress shopping now so au revoir xox

 

RESULTS!

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I JUST HAD TO UPLOAD THIS. I cannot remember the last time I was this weight, it just has never happened. I have never seen this number on scales! I know I keep saying this but I truly mean it, it is amazing and I’m keeping on going!

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This was some of my lunch, I had a huge bowl of this delicious frozen fruit from Tesco which is 90p for about 200 grams! I had 80g of it for only 72kcals and it takes me ages to eat and really fills me up- 10/10 I would recommend!

Jessicana xo