Day 7 of 2015- 35 Days of 1200 calories

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Hi everyoneeeee! Third post in three days! I hope you’re all ok! Here are some pictures of what I was eating today:

Breakfast:

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One bowl of Original Quakers Oats with a banana and 13g of nutella. 241kcal.

Lunch:

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I had an apple before lunch. Here was my lunch of 2 rice crackers, 1 tin of tuna with tar tar sauce, cucumber and a small bit of vegetable soup. 228kcal.

Okay I was bad today and REALLY wanted some christmas cake so…

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140kcal.

Tea:

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Chicken in a bag with peri peri sauce, sweet potato mashed and stir fried vegetables. 325kcal.

Dessert:

I did have jelly at 20kcal. Followed by a hot chocolate and American Horror Story:
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I have just started watching this programme and I love it. It’s terrifying but I love it. Also don’t you love my guinea pig mug?

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Here it is- Murderrrrrrrr House!!!!!!! I love it.

Sorry for this bizarre post, I think I’m delirious from not eating…. ffs.

LOVE YOU,

Jessicana xo

p.s. still managed to add tags to this post though didn’t I ;).

End of Day Thirty-Five

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Hey lovelies,

Third late date but here you go, quite a bad day but still under my goal.

Update for 03/10/14:

Breakfast: Leftover pizza slice 211kcal.

Total: 211kcal.

Lunch: Leftover pizza slice 211kcal.

Total: 211kcal.

Tea: Stir fry veg mix 44kcal, Cooked Chicken pieces 144kcal, black bean sauce 140kcal *Microwave brownie* chocolate 103kcal, sugar 32kcal, flour 102kcal, butter 220kcal.

Total: 785kcal.

Snacks: peach 37kcal, apple 38kcal, fruit salad 39kcal, banana 155kcal, cooked ham  137kcal, smoothie 55kcal, cracker 25kcal, caramel bar 135kcal.

Total: 621kcal.

Overall total input 1,828kcal- 5 miles walking 354kcal= 1474kcal.

Not bad!

Jessicana xo

End of Day Thirty-Four

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Hey everyone,

Here is another late update for 02/10/14, not a very good day but wow I exercised a lot to make up for it!

Breakfast: Peach 59kcal, fig roll 67kcal.

Total: 126kcal.

Lunch: 4x cream crackers 140kcal, butter 55kcal, marmite 9kcal, apple 52kcal, BEN AND JERRY’S ICE CREAM 1,000KCALS! (Yes, I literally ate the whole pot…).

Total: 1,256kcal.

Tea: Papa John’s Hawaiian BBQ Pizza 1,262kcal, barbecue dipping sauce 45kcal.

Total: 1,307kcal.

Snacks: Half a chocolate chip cookie 64kcal.

Total: 64kcal.

Overall total input is 2,753kcal- 395kcal burnt walking and 467kcal swimming= 1891kcal.

Not bad, considering how much I ate but it would obviously have been a LOT better for me if I hadn’t eaten all of that.

End of Days Twenty-Eight and Twenty-Nine

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Hi everyone,

It has taken me real courage and strength to upload these updates and as you can see, I have had a SERIOUS bingle FILLED two days. I am seriously annoyed at myself because I have probably reversed all of my hard work for the past thirty-odd days. How/why did I do it, you might ask. Well because I have been pretty depressed recently, I had a cold and (tmi) but I was due on. These are no real excuses why I decided to 3,000 calories in one day on a sausage roll, doritos, hot chocolate, a bakewell tart for breakfast, 8 crackers throughout the day, ICE CREAM and a million raisins. The thing is, it’s already had an affect- I feel more bloated like I used to before. I’m not sure what happened, just whatever I ate/drank was not enough? I just kept going and the day after was worse because I found cake icing and ate that. So glad I’m going back to university today where if I have a binge session, it’s limited because I have hardly any food! I need to stop coming home when I’m upset too- it’s ridiculous.

Anyway, please excuse me but I’m not going to dwell on these two days as I am so ashamed and am starting off fresh today. I am going to walk 4 miles from the train station to my house to get back at myself for it. Hopefully, it will be a better day and I won’t give in to temptation like I have done for the past two days.

This is a formal apology to my body and I’m going to get back on track today! No alcohol, more fruit&veg, more water, more motivational videos and thinspo, more university work and hopefully a better body!

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Six

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Today (24/09/14) was possibly one of the worst days of my life and I feel like this blog has just turned into me ranting about my life. I need to let it out somewhere though and this seems to be the best place. I was so hungover I barely did anything except sleep and eat.

Here is the update:

Breakfast: 1 Nectarine 70kcal.

Total: 70kcal.

Lunch: *Raspberry Crumble* Granulated sugar 160kcal, plain flour 68kcal, butter 110kcal, frozen raspberries 66kcal.

Total: 404kcal.

Tea: CHINESE TAKEAWAY AGAIN- Sweet and sour chicken with rice 567kcal, 3x mini spring rolls 237kcal, Onken mango and passionfruit yogurt 203kcal.

Total: 1,007kcal.

Snacks: Mini cheddars 129kcal, cherry tomatoes 20kcal, frozen sweetcorn 144kcal, jammie dodgers 150kcal.

Total: 443kcal.

Overall input was 1,924kcal!

AWFUL. All of this weight I’ve lost is just going to come piling back on unless I do something SOON. Tomorrow? Think I need to look at some serious thinspo.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Four

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Hello lovelies,

Actually an update on the day I completed it and it was a terrible day, as the past few days have also been! I really need to get my act together with this but it’s literally impossible when I go out and drink so many times a week- I’m going out tomorrow too. I could not drink but I wouldn’t have as good a night as when I do drink so that’s not really an option, we’ll see. I managed to cut down on what I ate whilst drunk yesterday so maybe there is hope. I will exercise properly tomorrow too with swimming and walking.

Update for 22/09/14:

Breakfast: Nectarine 70kcal.

Total: 70kcal.

Lunch: Pesto Chicken Sandwich 315kcal (I don’t understand how a light choices option is still over 300 calories? This world has gone mad!), low fat houmous 90kcal, cucumber 16kcal, cherry tomatoes 24kcal, carrot stick 5kcal.

Total: 450kcal.

Tea: SIX Chinese hoisin duck pancakes 570kcal, Sweet and sour chicken with rice 567kcal, Sweet and sour chicken balls 300kcal.

Total: 1,437kcal!!

Snacks: Spearmint gum 7kcal.

Total: 7kcal.

Overall total input was 1,964kcal- 242kcal walking= 1722kcal.

Not overly bad, I shouldn’t put weight on from this but I probably will. It’s weigh-in day in our house tomorrow so we’ll see how I have done compared to the others.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-Three

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Hey everyone,

Sorry this one is late, I have been super busy recently with uni!

Breakfast: 0kcal.

Total: 0kcal.

Lunch: *Raspberry Crumble* Frozen raspberies 28kcal, Butter 55kcal, Granulated sugar 96kcal, White plain flour 102kcal.

Total: 281kcal.

Tea: Chilli con carne 150kcal, Brown rice 152kcal, barbecue sauce 21kcal, bakewell tart 215kcal.

Total: 538kcal.

Snacks: Frozen mango 66kcal, Cherry tomatoes 40kcal, gala apple 47kcal, club chocolate bar 118kcal, sparking diet lemonade 2kcal, cucumber 11kcal.

THEN I WENT OUT AND ATE RIDICULOUS CALORIES :-(.

A bottle of white wine 550kcal and half a chicken pizza 348kcal.

Total: 898kcal.

So my total input was 2,001kcal. So bad, I don’t even have any excuses- I danced for a solid 4 hours though so I probably burnt off calories then.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Twenty-One

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Hello everyone, I think I’m going to stop apologising for these always being late as I’m sure the majority of you know that trying to post things everyday is very demanding on life, especially now that I am in lectures 9-4 most days. Just know that I continuously log my food throughout the day, regardless of my posting- it has become quite an obsession and yesterday when my phone didn’t work, I found it really hard to eat and not track what I was eating.

Now that I am twenty-one days into my lifestyle change, I realise that in the last few days, myself and other people have been noticing me. I have had comments like “You look so thin from the back”, “are you eating?” and “you’re definitely going to pull tonight”. These are all comments that I never used to get. Never have I been asked if I am not eating before, totally out of context? I think it’s a compliment, especially as I am eating as you can see from my hideous day yesterday which I will explain now.

Yesterday, was one of my worst days of my lifestyle change so far for many reasons. Firstly, I had a splitting headache for the majority of the day and I am not sure why. It could have potentially been due to my low blood sugar, a lack of water intake or perhaps heat or stress. I realise now that my coping strategy when I get a headache is to eat! I ate so much and as we were going out clubbing in the evening, I had a **** it approach to food and yesterday was the first time I felt this, my guilt left me.

Secondly, I drank alcohol prior to going out and around forty-five minutes into it I felt an overwhelming sense of despair and sadness. I felt that it was pointless me going out, pointless me even still being awake, I decided I hated clubs and just wanted to go to bed. I sat there, staring into space with my friends asking what was wrong when I finally blurted out ‘there’s something wrong with me’. Now. I am not sure where this has come from but for the past week or so now, I have felt quite depressed. I have not struggled with the lack of eating- like I used to when I experienced dieting before, I have often found myself going from completely normal and happy to sadness the next, in a split second- like a mood swing? A total change of personality, perhaps due to my Gemini horoscope- no.

I ended up staying in, eating ice-cream and chocolate and then going to bed at 11pm. How awful. I cried to my other house mates and to myself in the bathroom. My other house mates think I’m under a lot of pressure and I don’t have to go out all the time. I definitely don’t enjoy meeting guys in clubs, it is NOT my thing and I guess it is hard when everyone else is doing this and it’s seen as the norm. I just don’t like it, I see it as pointless and pretty disgusting to be honest. Don’t get me wrong, if you do it that’s fine- I have done it in the past three times or so, so I completely understand but after having had a recent boyfriend I just don’t want to do it. The dancing is fun and staying up late is fun but the drinking alcohol and kissing boys is not. I went out sober before and that’s probably the best night I had out! I think that’s what I’m going to do.

 This is post is now quite long and personal so I apologise for that! I just felt like I needed to get some things off my chest. My friends also think I’m depressed and wonder where the old me has gone. It’s seriously getting me down.

I don’t think that my lifestyle change/diet is the cause of these issues, I think it just coincidentally happened at the same time, because I feel amazing and can feel the difference in thinness on my waist and on my thighs and I’m not stopping, regardless of this bad day.

Here is my update for 20/09/14:

Breakfast: Frozen raspberries 22kcal, frozen mango chunks 65kcal.

Total: 87kcal.

Lunch: Large raw carrot 52kcal, tesco low fat houmous 90kcal, cherry bakewell tart 215kcal.

Total: 357kcal.

Tea: Vegetarian Bean Burger 225kcal, Brown rice 80kcal, Frozen sweetcorn 115kcal.

Total: 420kcal.

Snacks: Milk Chocolate square 54kcal, Spearmint chewing gum 7kcal, Tesco profiteroles 170kcal, malt fruit loaf 174kcal, club fruit chocolate bar 118kcal, 1 krackawheat 34kcal, ice cream eton mess 150kcal, wispa chocolate bar 167kcal, Cherry Sourz alcohol 309kcal, Raspberry Cidre 190kcal.

Total: 1,373kcal. (I forgot 2 more krackawheats- +68kcal.)= 1441kcal.

Overall total input: 2,305kcal.

I did walk probably two miles or so today but I am not including that as it doesn’t matter. What matters is how awful today was! Over 2,300 kcals! Oh well, today I will have a fast and drink lots of water, perhaps go swimming too. I might go swimming but do all easy stroke- breast stroke. Haha.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Fifteen

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Hello everyone, I am finally getting back on track with my daily updates, I am actually writing this on the day that I completed it, however I will be scheduling it later so you can see my previous days before it- makes sense? Hopefully! 🙂

I went bridesmaid dress shopping again today and as you’ll see in another post, later on this evening, it was successful but entirely devastating. Regardless, it didn’t change how much I ate which it really should have done!

Breakfast: Nectarine 70kcal, a Sip of orange juice 12kcal.

Total: 82kcal.

Lunch: *Pub lunch estimate amount* Large white pitta bread 225kcal, iceburg lettuce 5kcal, 2 cherry tomatoes 8kcal, sour cream dip 73kcal, salsa 10kcal, pepper 14kcal, chicken breast 76kcal, Diet Coke 0kcal.

Total: 411kcal.

Tea: *Indian takeaway- uh oh, not actually as bad as I normally am!* 1/3 of a peshwari nan bread 262kcal, Tablespoon of chicken balti with 2 pieces of chicken 92kcal, tablespoon of chicken tikka masala with 1 piece of chicken 75kcal, Chicken shaslic with 1 piece of chicken 74kcal, 1/8 of a tray of pilau rice 71kcal.

Total: 575kcal. (Can’t actually believe I managed to eat so little considering there was SO MUCH left! I didn’t feel like I missed out on anything either as I had a little bit of everything).

Dessert: *why!?* Grandad’s birthday fruitcake 314kcal (approx.)

Total: 314kcal.

Snacks: Iced bun 135kcal, Werther’s original 8kcal.

Total: 143kcal.

Overall total: 1,525kcal.

This would’ve been an ok day without the fruit cake, I MUST RESIST IT.

Jessicana xo

Foods I never eat (and haven’t done in over a year)

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I just thought I would share with you all of the foods that I used to eat on a regular basis but have now cut almost completely.

1. White bread

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I never EVER eat white bread unless I have no other options.The only ever time I do is when I eat garlic bread or when I was in france, I ate an inch of white french baguette. This is such a change as I used to eat at least 2 (sometimes 4) slices of white bread DAILY. Can you imagine what this did to my body? Not only would it go straight to my fat stores but also contributes to cholesterol build up in my arteries. Nope, I am not eating it.

2. White pasta

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I do not eat white pasta. I made a simple change to wholewheat and if I am really being healthy it will be vegan too.

3. Milk

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I understand 100% that babies and young children (and animals) need milk, however adults don’t and I refuse to eat it knowing what is in it. I rarely drink normal tea and coffee too and if I do, I drink it black. Green tea FTW!

4. Butter

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I stopped eating pure butter years ago partly because I hate the taste. I only ever eat it when it is in other things like cake, if I ever eat it, or it’s in a certain dinner.

5. Cheddar cheese

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I never eat cheddar cheese any more. I used to eat cheese everyday on toast for lunch but now I never even buy it for myself. I only ever eat it when it is in a meal, for example at a restaurant.

6. Squash

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I never drink squash. My reason for this is due to my not liking its taste and also the additional calories. Why drink squash when you can drink water for 0 calories and I personally prefer the taste and freshness of a cold glass of water.

7. Peanut butter/Jams (and NEVER together)

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I never eat peanut butter or jams because they are FULL of sugar and fat. That piece of bread there is probably over 200 calories and won’t fill you up for more than an hour!

8. Hot chocolates

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You might as well eat a bar of chocolate- it’ll have the same calories!

9. Dried raisins/sultanas

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These mislead me for years, I thought they were healthy and I’d eat copious amounts. They’re actually full of sugar and I would rather not eat them.

10. Cereal/Cereal bars

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I don’t care what cereal it is, every single bowl of it is around 250-300 (with milk) calories and it is pure carbohydrate and fat. Don’t listen to anyone that tells you that 250-300 calories is ok for breakfast unless you are a VERY athletic/busy person. Breakfast shouldn’t be more than 200, for my body type anyway.

I know sometimes it is hard to resist and not eat these foods but just think of the health benefits. You’ll look and feel amazing, you just have to try.

Good luck!

Jessicana xo