Maintenance

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Wow I haven’t written on this blog in so so long so I definitely owe you lot an update!

I’m currently 10 stone 9.5lbs and the wedding is 4 weeks away today. I don’t think I’m going to manage to lose enough weight to be 9 stone 13lbs as I’m going to be honest with you I’ve hit a binging wall! Every time I don’t eat very much, I binge so much the next day and eat the calories I otherwise would have lost weight on. So unfair. It got so hard and I just felt like shit so then I concentrated on trying to just eat 1400 but I can only maintain on that amount, it is very hard to lose weight. I think that might be my basal metabolic rate, or around the 1500 mark so what is the point in me trying to lose weight on that? It would take months! No one can weight that long.

I’ve decided that eating 1200 calories is hell on earth, the majority of the time unless I feel ill or extremely bloated?

I don’t really have a recent picture of my body but maybe I’ll take one soon, there’s not much change- maybe a bit of weight loss off my stomach and my legs are more muscular because I’ve been walking so much! I have been walking 10,000-15,000 steps everyday.

Anyway, I will try and post more but I can’t promise it, my degree takes over my life and living with other people makes it harder to find time to be by myself. 

Jessicana xo

Day 7 of 2015- 35 Days of 1200 calories

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Hi everyoneeeee! Third post in three days! I hope you’re all ok! Here are some pictures of what I was eating today:

Breakfast:

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One bowl of Original Quakers Oats with a banana and 13g of nutella. 241kcal.

Lunch:

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I had an apple before lunch. Here was my lunch of 2 rice crackers, 1 tin of tuna with tar tar sauce, cucumber and a small bit of vegetable soup. 228kcal.

Okay I was bad today and REALLY wanted some christmas cake so…

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140kcal.

Tea:

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Chicken in a bag with peri peri sauce, sweet potato mashed and stir fried vegetables. 325kcal.

Dessert:

I did have jelly at 20kcal. Followed by a hot chocolate and American Horror Story:
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I have just started watching this programme and I love it. It’s terrifying but I love it. Also don’t you love my guinea pig mug?

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Here it is- Murderrrrrrrr House!!!!!!! I love it.

Sorry for this bizarre post, I think I’m delirious from not eating…. ffs.

LOVE YOU,

Jessicana xo

p.s. still managed to add tags to this post though didn’t I ;).

Day 6 of 2015- 35 Days of 1200 calories

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Hello everyone, can you believe it? Two blog posts in one day and now it is a daily update! Just like I used to do!

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3356.jpgThis was my breakfast- green tea and one piece of brown bread with nutella. 167kcal. I wasn’t very hungry this morning which surprised me and so I didn’t eat my usual porridge./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3362.jpgThis was my lunch and it was delicious and healthy as usual, I had an apple in between breakfast and lunch. I had sliced cucumber, cherry tomatoes, one cooked beetroot and tuna with 10g of tar tar sauce. I then had two rice cakes too at 29kcal each. 284kcal.

After lunch I had a caramel bar, as I have shown you in a previous blog:

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For dinner I had the same as yesterday but plain white rice instead of risotto. I didn’t really want the white rice as I don’t really like it and it makes me bloated but my mum made it so I couldn’t really say no. It came to 473kcal.

Following dinner I had this lovely jelly at 18kcal:

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My total intake was 1,200 exactly and I’m still on track with my new goal. Day 6 complete!

Jessicana xo

Day 5 of 2015- 35 days of 1200 calories

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Hello friends! It has been a while (as usual- I’m sorry blah blah, the usual). I’m really happy to welcome a lot new followers though! Welcome lovelies! I hope you like my blog and so now I’ve got a lot more of you, I feel obliged to post more so here we go :). Maybe a new resolution of mine to blog more? Even though I haven’t been actually blogging I have been taking a lot of pictures of my food because I think it looks very healthy and healthy = beautiful. Doesn’t it?

I have some new lovelies! I’m going to New York in February! Can you believe it? I’ve never even been to America so how incredible is that? NEW YORK CITYYYYYYY. The amount of money I’m planning on spending is surreal but before the trip, I need to lose this christmas weight and some additional if I can. I am here with a new motive and I’m going to TRY and maintain this diet regardless of mum keeping on saying ‘I don’t think you’re eating enough to maintain someone of your age’. Ha. Am I dead? No. Then I’m doing just fine. My issue is that it is the holiday still for me and I am LAZY. I can’t seem to find motivation to get up and exercise so I am just super restricting my food intake.

I do have some more good news, I went to our New Years Eve family party as I always do and I was the thinnest I have been in years. Hey, maybe I’ll do a before and after picture- Here we go:

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These photos are me on 31st December 2013. Look at those rolls and I’m standing up straight. I have always suffered from these and I’m feeling a bit sick uploading them because it is so embarrassing. THIS is RAW motivation people!

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Actually looking at these pictures from the 31st December 2014, I haven’t done that well but considering I only changed my lifestyle in September 2014, that was a continued 8 months of being unhealthy. I am sorry that there are no face shots but I’m not comfortable with disclosing who I am just yet. If you knew who I am it is pretty obvious from the pictures and the smile you can see if the first picture above.

Anyway I weighed myself at the party here and baring in mind I had just eaten A LOT of party food but no alcohol, I was 10stone 12. Yes I’m sorry guys but that means I’ve put on a hefty 8lbs from my lowest weight of 10st 4 but don’t worry I’m back on track, weighing 10st 8 now.

If you’re wondering if it’s just the dress that has made me look like this, want to see a picture of me wearing the dress in December 2013 in November 2014? Here ya go:

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Perfect blog picture there on the right and yes, we are drunk ;). I’m a student, forgive me? But I don’t know about you but I think I have lost weight visibly. Oh well a lot more to go.

Anyway enough pictures of me and more pictures of MY FOOD. I have been eating super healthy and I’m feeling the fat slowly melting away as my stomach grumbles (or so I like to think!)

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Lunches:

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3341.jpgThis was delicious! I think I have breakfasts and lunches down to a tea! (Get it? ;)) They’re always so nice! Just no/low carbohydrates! This is Piri piri chicken chunks with lettuce leaves, cucumber, cooked beetroot and Pizza Express Basil pesto salad dressing. 194kcal.IMG_3336One of my favourites if I want a hot lunch! Fish fingers (x3), please ignore the serving suggestion of 4 on the box it is an absolute joke. Who can fit that in a single sandwich, let alone eat them all? Ridiculous! Just shows the changes happening in our world. Of course Birdseye want you to eat 4 so that you have to buy more quicker! A JOKE. Don’t fall for these scamming companies. Regardless, I do love their fish fingers. 3 cod birdseye fish fingers with 7.5g of tar tar sauce spread on top with birdseye garden peas. 240kcal. /home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3348.jpgI’m really into these picky lunches at the moment. They look delicious on the plate and look like loads! It takes me a while to eat too as I savour every bite. This is 3 slices of beef pastrami, 7 cherry tomatoes (I ate one), one large cooked beetroot, a gala apple and a small amount of fruit smoothie. 294kcal./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3353.jpgThis was today and I now have a NEW FAVOURITE. Peanut butter on rice cakes. Be careful with the peanut butter though as this tiny amount was something ridiculous like 93 calories!! Peanut butter on two rice cakes, cucumber, cooked beetroot, cherry tomatoes and one slice of beef pastrami (there was none left). 229kcal.

Snack:/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3349.jpgThis was the tiny bit of fruit cake that I allowed myself to eat on the second day of my diet. Do you want to guess how many calories it was? I’m serious, I weighed it and everything. 170… I’m not kidding. ONE HUNDRED AND SEVENTY CALORIES FOR THE TINIEST BIT OF FRUIT CAKE I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE AND WHO CAN HONESTLY SAY THIS IS THE PORTION SIZE THEY GO FOR WHEN THEY EAT CAKE? It wasn’t even worth it because I was ABSOLUTELY STARVING come bedtime because of this stupid cake that I could have used this calories so much more wisely. I will not make the same mistake again.

Teas:

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If you want an example of what my days have been like recently, here you go! I did well today and it had to be 1,146kcal because I went over by 54 yesterday at 1254 calories but I managed to keep under it today and make up for that. I do it so precise, I will not enjoy the day when I make a mistake. It is becoming a bit of an obsession, myfitnesspal is telling me that I have logged in for 137 days in a row which means, yes, I calculated ALL of my days over the christmas period and new years. So, I can tell you that on Christmas day as a rough over-estimate, I ate 4000calories. I know, a nightmare but I was looking up the average intake for someone on Christmas Day and it was 6000 calories. I don’t know HOW (if they do) people manage that. I felt absolutely disgusting on 4000, let alone more. I will maybe show you what I ate but also, maybe now. I can tell you, however, that I ate basically 800 calories worth of stuffing, so vegetarianism? Maybeeeeee not.

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I just thought I would show you guys this. The girl on the left has a body CREEPILY similar to mine and the body on the right is pretty much my dream body. That thigh gap… She did lose all of her boobs though, so maybe the middle weight is the best. I’d certainly be happy with it.

It’s nice to be back and even lovelier to see new faces,

Bye for now,

Jessicana xo

Tips for NOT eating (much) on Christmas Day!

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As you all know, it is Christmas tomorrow and that for me (and most other people) means food, family and fun. I want to concentrate more on the family and fun parts of those three. Christmas Day is not an excuse to eat everything in sight. I have been researching for the past few weeks on how to overcome the issue of eating too much on Christmas.

No one likes the feeling of being bloated and having eaten so much they feel like they are going to explode so why do we do it? Is it just because it is in front of us? Is it for our family or parents who have slaved for hours prepared vegetables and meat for YOUR benefit. Benefit? No. It is no benefit. It’s to your detriment.

I have compiled a list of hints and tips that I will be following for tomorrow so that although I will eat a lot, I will eat less than I otherwise would have. I will put them in a constructed order too, to show you what my ‘plan’ and routine will be.

1. I will EAT breakfast- this is a good idea (honest)! I will probably eat porridge/oatmeal with raspberries and almond extract which is my absolute favourite at the moment as it tastes just like marzipan which is my arch nemesis in terms of cravings and gluttony.

2. I will drink green and peppermint tea throughout the day. The green tea will increase the speed of my metabolism, in the hope of digesting any bad foods I have eaten quicker. The peppermint tea will act as a mild laxative, acting on my bowel walls to contract and move the food faster through my body. I also find that peppermint decreases my appetite and hence, I will drink it after breakfast, the christmas dinner and any other snacks.

3. Stay away from alcohol and other high calorie beverages. I know this is hard (I’m a student- I KNOW). This has been the cause of all of my weight gain which I then had to lose again. I vow right now that I won’t be drinking any alcohol tomorrow, nor ‘nice’ drinks like J20 or cokes or anything. NO. I was lucky enough to find a 1 calorie per 330ml of ginger beer that I will be drinking throughout the day as well as water and my teas! This will save me 500 calories at least, opposed to years before.

4. Stay away from the chocolates and crisps. These two are the main culprits for high calorie intake on christmas. Even when people are full to beyond belief, they still feel the need to gorge on a ridiculous amount of crisps and chocolate. I would know- I have done this EVERY year up till now. So now, all I can imagine is the years of damage I have done to my body and it makes me so angry. How could I be so ridiculous? No one likes a girl who weighs 11stone 5lbs at 5ft 5! (My highest weight). I neglected my body and now I need to apologise to it by eating good things. As a substitute to chocolate I will be eating nuts which may be high calorie but are full of good nutrients. As a substitute for crisps I will be eating vegetables dipped in various dips which (of course) are also a lot healthier. I will be keeping all of these snacks to a minimum though in preparation for…

5. I’m sitting at the end, in the corner of our big table for dinner, slightly out of eyes view of everyone and slightly away from the HUGE bowl that will inevitably sit on the table FILLED with roast potatoes. Not eating any. I swear, now. I am not eating ANY potatoes because they are the most unhealthy thing on the menu in our house. If anyone disagrees then please let me know.

6. Fill your plate with VEGETABLES and TURKEY/PROTEIN. I am staying clear of the roast potatoes BIG time! I am going to take a photograph of my plate tomorrow in the hope it will motivate me and also so that I can record the calories at the end of the day and upload them to here like I said I would.

7. Have one pudding or one serving of pudding. I don’t know about anyone else but in my house, tomorrow, there will probably be at least five different puddings available. There is christmas pudding, lemon mousse, sticky toffee pudding, trifle and pavlova. So FIVE! That’s not even including the christmas cake. That is ridiculous considering there are only eleven of us adults eating it. Hopefully a lot of it will be taken home by my family and it won’t be lingering in my house. I have just remembered too we have a bunch of other frozen desserts in the freezer too- banoffee pie, lemon cheesecake, after eight ice cream and clotted cream ice cream. Bloody hell. Kill me.

8. Always have a drink of some kind near you, it’ll keep your mouth stimulated and people won’t suspect anything.

9. If the worst happens and people question why you aren’t eating anything then just say you don’t feel well. That’s my plan.

10. Make yourself look pretty and wear tight clothes. No one wants a food baby in a tight skirt or dress. Maybe I’ll show you a picture of me if you’re lucky ;-).

11. Weigh yourself throughout the day, that’ll stop you!

12. Encourage other people to eat more, or offer them food. I will be helping my mum in the kitchen, in the hope of it putting me off eating. Especially if I chew gum, which I will be.

13. Wait for your stomach to rumble before eating anything after christmas dinner. If your body wants more food, it will tell you so just wait for the signal!

Anyway, there are 13 (unlucky for some) tips to get you through Christmas day and just remember eating doesn’t equal happiness. You can have a lovely fun filled family orientated day without food being a buzz killer for you. So maintain your weight loss and don’t be tricked into eating the ‘average’ 6000 calories that every talks about eating.

Good luck,

Jessicana xo

End of Day Thirty-Six

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Hello lovelies,

Here is my update for 04/10/14:

Today I was at home relaxing which I know I said I wouldn’t come home that often any more but everyone else was home this weekend so I didn’t see why I couldn’t- ha.

Breakfast: Kiwi fruit 44kcal, gala apple 47kcal.

Total: 91kcal.

Lunch: cod fish fingersx3 154kcal, half a sandwich thin wholemeal 50kcal (yes I threw half of it away- yay), tar tar sauce 12kcal.

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Total: 216kcal.

Tea: White noodles (Arrghhh) 250kcal, chicken 106kcal, black bean sauce 90kcal, baby sweetcorn 13kcal, red pepper 10kcal, *microwave brownie* (It’s getting ridiculous now, I eat these everyday- I need a substitute)- butter 110kcal, sugar 32kcal, nutella 100kcal, flour 68kcal, vanilla ice cream 100kcal.

Total: 879kcal.

Snacks: 2 crackers 50kcal, nutella 160kcal, banana 100kcal, ham 35kcal, smoothie 18kcal, orange 40kcal, raisins 123kcal.

Total: 526kcal.

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Overall total input was 1,712kcal- 331kcal burnt walking on the treadmill= 1381kcal.

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I don’t know why but this evening when I went to bed I was STARVING. My stomach was rumbling so much and I had to go to bed early because of it. Horrible and I woke up starving too so something must be happening to my body- something good hopefully.

Jessicana xo

End of Day Thirty-Five

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Hey lovelies,

Third late date but here you go, quite a bad day but still under my goal.

Update for 03/10/14:

Breakfast: Leftover pizza slice 211kcal.

Total: 211kcal.

Lunch: Leftover pizza slice 211kcal.

Total: 211kcal.

Tea: Stir fry veg mix 44kcal, Cooked Chicken pieces 144kcal, black bean sauce 140kcal *Microwave brownie* chocolate 103kcal, sugar 32kcal, flour 102kcal, butter 220kcal.

Total: 785kcal.

Snacks: peach 37kcal, apple 38kcal, fruit salad 39kcal, banana 155kcal, cooked ham  137kcal, smoothie 55kcal, cracker 25kcal, caramel bar 135kcal.

Total: 621kcal.

Overall total input 1,828kcal- 5 miles walking 354kcal= 1474kcal.

Not bad!

Jessicana xo

End of Day Thirty-Four

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Hey everyone,

Here is another late update for 02/10/14, not a very good day but wow I exercised a lot to make up for it!

Breakfast: Peach 59kcal, fig roll 67kcal.

Total: 126kcal.

Lunch: 4x cream crackers 140kcal, butter 55kcal, marmite 9kcal, apple 52kcal, BEN AND JERRY’S ICE CREAM 1,000KCALS! (Yes, I literally ate the whole pot…).

Total: 1,256kcal.

Tea: Papa John’s Hawaiian BBQ Pizza 1,262kcal, barbecue dipping sauce 45kcal.

Total: 1,307kcal.

Snacks: Half a chocolate chip cookie 64kcal.

Total: 64kcal.

Overall total input is 2,753kcal- 395kcal burnt walking and 467kcal swimming= 1891kcal.

Not bad, considering how much I ate but it would obviously have been a LOT better for me if I hadn’t eaten all of that.

End of Day Thirty-Two

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Hello everyone, here is my update for 30/09/14:

Breakfast: Peach 59kcal, green tea 1kcal, fig roll 67kcal.

Total: 127kcal.

Lunch: 4x cream crackers 140kcal, butter 55kcal, marmite 9kcal, cucumber 16kcal, carrot 26kcal, low fat houmous 90kcal.

Total: 336kcal.

Tea: Morrisons stir fry vegetables 44kcal, cooked chicken pieces 144kcal, butter 55kcal, hoisin sauce 86kcal.

Total: 329kcal.

Snacks: gala apple 47kcal, malt fruit loaf 130kcal, spearmint chewing gum 7kcal, *microwave brownie* butter 109kcal, chocolate 206kcal, sugar 60kcal, plain flour 68kcal, Water biscuits 44kcal.

Total: 672kcal.

Overall input 1464- exercise walking of 362= 1102kcal.

Pretty good! I’m going to keep up :-).

Jessicana xo

End of Day Thirty-One

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Hello everyone, I am getting back on track with the dieting now and am pretty pleased with the amount of miles I have been walking daily!

Here is my update for 29/09/14:

Breakfast: 2x cream crackers 70kcal, butter 55kcal, marmite 9kcal.

Total: 134kcal.

Lunch: large raw carrot 39kcal, cucumber 16kcal.

Total: 55kcal.

Tea: Fried chicken 106kcal, brown pasta 166kcal, butter 55kcal, peppers 29kcal, frozen sweetcorn 46kcal.

Total: 402kcal.

Snacks: gala apple 47kcal, malt fruit loaf 130kcal, *microwave brownie* made of butter 109kcal, chocolate 206kcal, sugar 60kcal, plain flour 68kcal, cherry tomatoes 80kcal, malt fruit loaf 96kcal, fig rollsx2 134kcal.

Total: 938kcal.

Overall input for today was 1529 and I walked 6miles for a total of 360kcal so..

1529-360=1169kcal.

Not a bad day, once again. I’m weighing 10st 11lb today so I have kind of come to a stand still but am pleased that I didn’t go back up to over 11stone.

Jessicana xo