Today was slightly better but still not great. I am off home tomorrow so hopefully my weekend will be healthier- I am determined to make it so, after having looked at some hardcore thinspo.
Today was really hard and there were multiple times where I hate to refuse food and refuse to go into shops. In the morning my friend wanted to go into the shop for breakfast and I originally agreed, thinking I would get something too but NO my inner thin person spoke to me and refused to let me- thank goodness. She came out with 5 cookies and I didn’t even enter the store.
Secondly at lunch, my friends were craving Mcdonalds so I went into the restaurant and watched as everyone around me devoured chips and burgers and I simply ordered a cup of tea. The man behind the counter couldn’t even understand that I didn’t want any food- what the hell. Anyway, I watched her eat a cheeseburger, six chicken nuggets, chips and a chocolate milkshake- thing is, she’s skinny so where is the fairness in that? I also realised that I walked 7 miles today and am now, obviously, shattered.
Here is my update for today (25/09/14):
Breakfast: 4 Cream crackers 140kcal, marmite 9kcal, butter 72kcal, nectarine 70kcal.
Total: 291kcal. (In fairness, I ate these crackers across a four hour period)
Lunch: 1 large raw carrot 54kcal.
Tea: 1 Fish shop sausage 235kcal, 1 portion of chips 655kcal, mango yogurt 203kcal.
Snacks: Tea with milk 10kcal, 2 jammie dodgers 150kcal, extra strong mints 30kcal.
Overall input was 1,626kcal- exercise of 439kcal burnt= 1,187kcal.
Actually not too bad! I just want to only be eating that amount without having to exercise to get it down. I don’t agree with eating calories you burnt from exercise- pointless? Anyway, quite proud of how little I did eat compared to my friends! Now for some more thinspo and bed.