Day 5 of 2015- 35 days of 1200 calories

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Hello friends! It has been a while (as usual- I’m sorry blah blah, the usual). I’m really happy to welcome a lot new followers though! Welcome lovelies! I hope you like my blog and so now I’ve got a lot more of you, I feel obliged to post more so here we go :). Maybe a new resolution of mine to blog more? Even though I haven’t been actually blogging I have been taking a lot of pictures of my food because I think it looks very healthy and healthy = beautiful. Doesn’t it?

I have some new lovelies! I’m going to New York in February! Can you believe it? I’ve never even been to America so how incredible is that? NEW YORK CITYYYYYYY. The amount of money I’m planning on spending is surreal but before the trip, I need to lose this christmas weight and some additional if I can. I am here with a new motive and I’m going to TRY and maintain this diet regardless of mum keeping on saying ‘I don’t think you’re eating enough to maintain someone of your age’. Ha. Am I dead? No. Then I’m doing just fine. My issue is that it is the holiday still for me and I am LAZY. I can’t seem to find motivation to get up and exercise so I am just super restricting my food intake.

I do have some more good news, I went to our New Years Eve family party as I always do and I was the thinnest I have been in years. Hey, maybe I’ll do a before and after picture- Here we go:

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These photos are me on 31st December 2013. Look at those rolls and I’m standing up straight. I have always suffered from these and I’m feeling a bit sick uploading them because it is so embarrassing. THIS is RAW motivation people!

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Actually looking at these pictures from the 31st December 2014, I haven’t done that well but considering I only changed my lifestyle in September 2014, that was a continued 8 months of being unhealthy. I am sorry that there are no face shots but I’m not comfortable with disclosing who I am just yet. If you knew who I am it is pretty obvious from the pictures and the smile you can see if the first picture above.

Anyway I weighed myself at the party here and baring in mind I had just eaten A LOT of party food but no alcohol, I was 10stone 12. Yes I’m sorry guys but that means I’ve put on a hefty 8lbs from my lowest weight of 10st 4 but don’t worry I’m back on track, weighing 10st 8 now.

If you’re wondering if it’s just the dress that has made me look like this, want to see a picture of me wearing the dress in December 2013 in November 2014? Here ya go:

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Perfect blog picture there on the right and yes, we are drunk ;). I’m a student, forgive me? But I don’t know about you but I think I have lost weight visibly. Oh well a lot more to go.

Anyway enough pictures of me and more pictures of MY FOOD. I have been eating super healthy and I’m feeling the fat slowly melting away as my stomach grumbles (or so I like to think!)

Breakfasts:/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3315.jpgThis is a bowl of Quakers Oatso Simple Big Bowl with 40ml of semi-skimmed milk, 80ml of water and a sprinkle of cinnamon. 206kcal./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3346.jpgThis is a bowl of Harvest Morn Golden Syrup Instant Oat Cereal with 120ml of water, one small chopped banana and 5g of brown sugar. 236kcal.

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A beautiful close up, ha./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3352.jpgThis was today and I couldn’t resist the nutella that Mum bought. FFS. This is one slice of brown bread with 15g of nutella and a small banana. 243kcal. I think the idea is small amounts of whatever it is you want, and I didn’t exactly scrimp on the nutella. It is a lot of calories just for 15g though- 81!

Lunches:

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3341.jpgThis was delicious! I think I have breakfasts and lunches down to a tea! (Get it? ;)) They’re always so nice! Just no/low carbohydrates! This is Piri piri chicken chunks with lettuce leaves, cucumber, cooked beetroot and Pizza Express Basil pesto salad dressing. 194kcal.IMG_3336One of my favourites if I want a hot lunch! Fish fingers (x3), please ignore the serving suggestion of 4 on the box it is an absolute joke. Who can fit that in a single sandwich, let alone eat them all? Ridiculous! Just shows the changes happening in our world. Of course Birdseye want you to eat 4 so that you have to buy more quicker! A JOKE. Don’t fall for these scamming companies. Regardless, I do love their fish fingers. 3 cod birdseye fish fingers with 7.5g of tar tar sauce spread on top with birdseye garden peas. 240kcal. /home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3348.jpgI’m really into these picky lunches at the moment. They look delicious on the plate and look like loads! It takes me a while to eat too as I savour every bite. This is 3 slices of beef pastrami, 7 cherry tomatoes (I ate one), one large cooked beetroot, a gala apple and a small amount of fruit smoothie. 294kcal./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3353.jpgThis was today and I now have a NEW FAVOURITE. Peanut butter on rice cakes. Be careful with the peanut butter though as this tiny amount was something ridiculous like 93 calories!! Peanut butter on two rice cakes, cucumber, cooked beetroot, cherry tomatoes and one slice of beef pastrami (there was none left). 229kcal.

Snack:/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3349.jpgThis was the tiny bit of fruit cake that I allowed myself to eat on the second day of my diet. Do you want to guess how many calories it was? I’m serious, I weighed it and everything. 170… I’m not kidding. ONE HUNDRED AND SEVENTY CALORIES FOR THE TINIEST BIT OF FRUIT CAKE I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE AND WHO CAN HONESTLY SAY THIS IS THE PORTION SIZE THEY GO FOR WHEN THEY EAT CAKE? It wasn’t even worth it because I was ABSOLUTELY STARVING come bedtime because of this stupid cake that I could have used this calories so much more wisely. I will not make the same mistake again.

Teas:

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If you want an example of what my days have been like recently, here you go! I did well today and it had to be 1,146kcal because I went over by 54 yesterday at 1254 calories but I managed to keep under it today and make up for that. I do it so precise, I will not enjoy the day when I make a mistake. It is becoming a bit of an obsession, myfitnesspal is telling me that I have logged in for 137 days in a row which means, yes, I calculated ALL of my days over the christmas period and new years. So, I can tell you that on Christmas day as a rough over-estimate, I ate 4000calories. I know, a nightmare but I was looking up the average intake for someone on Christmas Day and it was 6000 calories. I don’t know HOW (if they do) people manage that. I felt absolutely disgusting on 4000, let alone more. I will maybe show you what I ate but also, maybe now. I can tell you, however, that I ate basically 800 calories worth of stuffing, so vegetarianism? Maybeeeeee not.

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I just thought I would show you guys this. The girl on the left has a body CREEPILY similar to mine and the body on the right is pretty much my dream body. That thigh gap… She did lose all of her boobs though, so maybe the middle weight is the best. I’d certainly be happy with it.

It’s nice to be back and even lovelier to see new faces,

Bye for now,

Jessicana xo

Exercise Time Three

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Hello beautifuls,

Now, as you can see from my blog I have been doing some running/fast walking on the treadmill. Well, starting from the 01/09/14 I began to try and do the ‘couch to 5k’ app used by NHS Choices to promote healthy living. I didn’t buy the app, I simply am doing what the instructions say to do. I’m doing it with a friend which makes it a bit easier and more enjoyable.

Here it is,

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I’ll let you guys know how I get on with it.

Being back at university in London, means I am close to all kinds of amenities and there are a bunch of societies at my university that I can join. This year I am planning to do as follows:

Monday- Run

Tuesday- Run/Pilates

Wednesday- Yoga

Thursday- Run/Rest

Friday- Rest

Saturday- Rest

Sunday- Swimming

I’ll keep you updated, also, on whether I can stick to this pretty intense (for me) plan. I might add that when I swim I swim 64x25m lengths (a mile) and when I am running, it will vary depending on my couch to 5k app! All will be revealed.

Sorry but being a student means I NEED Fridays off for partying and Saturdays off to recover. Bring on the buckets of alcohol and hours of hangovers!

Jessicana xo

My lunchbox

Daily Updates

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Hello beautifuls, today is the third day of my journey and I am feeling fit, healthy and ready for university! This picture is my lunch for today. In the container on the left you can see 1/4 chopped green pepper, half a large (homegrown) cucumber, 6 (homegrown) cherry tomatoes and a tbsp of mango chutney. It seems like an odd creation but I am obsessed with mango chutney and healthy veggies so for me this is delicious. On the top right hand blue bag you can see one large orange and below 20 frozen raspberries. This comes in at 228kcals (which is next to nothing). Especially as these three things count as breakfast, lunch and snacks for me. I will be taking no cash with me so I am not tempted to buy sweets/mints ‘to get me through the lecture’ which is too often my excuse. I am not having it, regardless of how hungry I am and how much my stomach rumbles. If I space these out throughout the morning, I will be fine. The error will be if I eat everything at once. My body likes to eat little and often, which is fine by me.

I have also decided that as a little treat, I will be taking with me a kinder bueno french chocolate/cake bar thing that my sister bought whilst on holiday. I will keep this as an emergency food and see if I really need it or not, I shouldn’t but I would rather have this there than faint. It is a whopping 199kcal so I will only eat it in an emergency. Ha- sounds like I have a medical condition or something, luckily I don’t.

Speaking of which, it may interest you to know that I am an adult nursing student so one of my roles in the healthcare system is to educate and promote health- I cannot do this if I am overweight really, can I? It is hypocritical. So some more *motivation* comes from my duty to help the public be healthy themselves and to live healthy lifestyles. I think also if I manage to lose this weight now then I will be able to empathise and assist people who also need to lose weight, as I have been in their situation. I often see overweight healthcare staff and I just wonder how. I find it interesting, somewhat logical but also discriminative that in an article I read the other day, people are planning on banning/firing overweight/obese nurses. I also read that employers often refuse people jobs based on their weight. Bit of a shocker there. Better get into shape for my future then :)- all aspects of it.

I just did some more research and read ‘Can overweight nurses make good nurses?” Wow, that one burns. That is a really harsh statement and I think the answer to their question is “Yes of course!” There is a lot of negative stigma around nurses and their intelligence, behaviour and care given, without their appearance as well! When will the public give nurses a break? Never. Anyway, rant over and let us not be a statistic!

Jessicana xo

My Celebrity Girlcrush/Motivation

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Jennifer Lawrence

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Not only is JL an amazingly talented actress but she’s also intelligent and down to earth. I like that she isn’t stick thin too, she has curves and of course she is beautiful no matter what she is wearing!

*Motivation* When you have a thin body, you can wear whatever you want and still look gorgeous, as JL demonstrates above.