Day 5 of 2015- 35 days of 1200 calories

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Hello friends! It has been a while (as usual- I’m sorry blah blah, the usual). I’m really happy to welcome a lot new followers though! Welcome lovelies! I hope you like my blog and so now I’ve got a lot more of you, I feel obliged to post more so here we go :). Maybe a new resolution of mine to blog more? Even though I haven’t been actually blogging I have been taking a lot of pictures of my food because I think it looks very healthy and healthy = beautiful. Doesn’t it?

I have some new lovelies! I’m going to New York in February! Can you believe it? I’ve never even been to America so how incredible is that? NEW YORK CITYYYYYYY. The amount of money I’m planning on spending is surreal but before the trip, I need to lose this christmas weight and some additional if I can. I am here with a new motive and I’m going to TRY and maintain this diet regardless of mum keeping on saying ‘I don’t think you’re eating enough to maintain someone of your age’. Ha. Am I dead? No. Then I’m doing just fine. My issue is that it is the holiday still for me and I am LAZY. I can’t seem to find motivation to get up and exercise so I am just super restricting my food intake.

I do have some more good news, I went to our New Years Eve family party as I always do and I was the thinnest I have been in years. Hey, maybe I’ll do a before and after picture- Here we go:

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These photos are me on 31st December 2013. Look at those rolls and I’m standing up straight. I have always suffered from these and I’m feeling a bit sick uploading them because it is so embarrassing. THIS is RAW motivation people!

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Actually looking at these pictures from the 31st December 2014, I haven’t done that well but considering I only changed my lifestyle in September 2014, that was a continued 8 months of being unhealthy. I am sorry that there are no face shots but I’m not comfortable with disclosing who I am just yet. If you knew who I am it is pretty obvious from the pictures and the smile you can see if the first picture above.

Anyway I weighed myself at the party here and baring in mind I had just eaten A LOT of party food but no alcohol, I was 10stone 12. Yes I’m sorry guys but that means I’ve put on a hefty 8lbs from my lowest weight of 10st 4 but don’t worry I’m back on track, weighing 10st 8 now.

If you’re wondering if it’s just the dress that has made me look like this, want to see a picture of me wearing the dress in December 2013 in November 2014? Here ya go:

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Perfect blog picture there on the right and yes, we are drunk ;). I’m a student, forgive me? But I don’t know about you but I think I have lost weight visibly. Oh well a lot more to go.

Anyway enough pictures of me and more pictures of MY FOOD. I have been eating super healthy and I’m feeling the fat slowly melting away as my stomach grumbles (or so I like to think!)

Breakfasts:/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3315.jpgThis is a bowl of Quakers Oatso Simple Big Bowl with 40ml of semi-skimmed milk, 80ml of water and a sprinkle of cinnamon. 206kcal./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3346.jpgThis is a bowl of Harvest Morn Golden Syrup Instant Oat Cereal with 120ml of water, one small chopped banana and 5g of brown sugar. 236kcal.

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A beautiful close up, ha./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3352.jpgThis was today and I couldn’t resist the nutella that Mum bought. FFS. This is one slice of brown bread with 15g of nutella and a small banana. 243kcal. I think the idea is small amounts of whatever it is you want, and I didn’t exactly scrimp on the nutella. It is a lot of calories just for 15g though- 81!

Lunches:

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3341.jpgThis was delicious! I think I have breakfasts and lunches down to a tea! (Get it? ;)) They’re always so nice! Just no/low carbohydrates! This is Piri piri chicken chunks with lettuce leaves, cucumber, cooked beetroot and Pizza Express Basil pesto salad dressing. 194kcal.IMG_3336One of my favourites if I want a hot lunch! Fish fingers (x3), please ignore the serving suggestion of 4 on the box it is an absolute joke. Who can fit that in a single sandwich, let alone eat them all? Ridiculous! Just shows the changes happening in our world. Of course Birdseye want you to eat 4 so that you have to buy more quicker! A JOKE. Don’t fall for these scamming companies. Regardless, I do love their fish fingers. 3 cod birdseye fish fingers with 7.5g of tar tar sauce spread on top with birdseye garden peas. 240kcal. /home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3348.jpgI’m really into these picky lunches at the moment. They look delicious on the plate and look like loads! It takes me a while to eat too as I savour every bite. This is 3 slices of beef pastrami, 7 cherry tomatoes (I ate one), one large cooked beetroot, a gala apple and a small amount of fruit smoothie. 294kcal./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3353.jpgThis was today and I now have a NEW FAVOURITE. Peanut butter on rice cakes. Be careful with the peanut butter though as this tiny amount was something ridiculous like 93 calories!! Peanut butter on two rice cakes, cucumber, cooked beetroot, cherry tomatoes and one slice of beef pastrami (there was none left). 229kcal.

Snack:/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3349.jpgThis was the tiny bit of fruit cake that I allowed myself to eat on the second day of my diet. Do you want to guess how many calories it was? I’m serious, I weighed it and everything. 170… I’m not kidding. ONE HUNDRED AND SEVENTY CALORIES FOR THE TINIEST BIT OF FRUIT CAKE I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE AND WHO CAN HONESTLY SAY THIS IS THE PORTION SIZE THEY GO FOR WHEN THEY EAT CAKE? It wasn’t even worth it because I was ABSOLUTELY STARVING come bedtime because of this stupid cake that I could have used this calories so much more wisely. I will not make the same mistake again.

Teas:

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/d37/73850620/files/2015/01/img_3354.jpgI only have one picture of a tea I have recently eaten and this was today AND it’s vegetarian! There were six meatballs made with soya (Tesco) and half a packet of the Vegetable risotto also made by Tesco which was bought frozen. There was a tiny bit of a spicy tomato sauce under the meatballs too. It was delicious. I might try vegetarianism! 396kcal.

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If you want an example of what my days have been like recently, here you go! I did well today and it had to be 1,146kcal because I went over by 54 yesterday at 1254 calories but I managed to keep under it today and make up for that. I do it so precise, I will not enjoy the day when I make a mistake. It is becoming a bit of an obsession, myfitnesspal is telling me that I have logged in for 137 days in a row which means, yes, I calculated ALL of my days over the christmas period and new years. So, I can tell you that on Christmas day as a rough over-estimate, I ate 4000calories. I know, a nightmare but I was looking up the average intake for someone on Christmas Day and it was 6000 calories. I don’t know HOW (if they do) people manage that. I felt absolutely disgusting on 4000, let alone more. I will maybe show you what I ate but also, maybe now. I can tell you, however, that I ate basically 800 calories worth of stuffing, so vegetarianism? Maybeeeeee not.

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I just thought I would show you guys this. The girl on the left has a body CREEPILY similar to mine and the body on the right is pretty much my dream body. That thigh gap… She did lose all of her boobs though, so maybe the middle weight is the best. I’d certainly be happy with it.

It’s nice to be back and even lovelier to see new faces,

Bye for now,

Jessicana xo

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Initial hello

Welcome Information

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Hello and welcome to my weightloss/thinspo&fitspo blog. My name is Jessica and I’m a 19 year old university student. Today is the beginning of a new me- for real this time. I have recently been researching and browsing online through numerous thinspo/weightloss/fitspo (and even some pro ana) blogs to help me with my weightloss and to inspire me.

Today, the 30th of August 2014 I will begin a journey to become my dream weight. As you can see from the photo I have enclosed, I am not slim. I’m 5ft6 and I weigh currently (wait while I go and weigh myself) 11st 1lb which is a whopping 70.5kg and 155.4lbs. My BMI is 24.9 which is 0.1 off being overweight and I am not happy about this. This weight has actually surprised me as I have just been in the French Alps on holiday. During my time here, I swam 2 miles over the week, climbed 2 mountains, went on numerous walks and did restrain myself from eating all the snacks and treats that my other family members were indulging on. Anyway 11st 1lb is a new low weight for me and I’m pretty pleased, in the picture enclosed I am 11st 3lb.

My dream weight is a way off yet and I know that I am in serious need to work hard and stretch my motivation to its limits. I wasn’t going to identify a weight goal as I have read a number of times that it is often a downer and can reduce motivation in yourself but I am going to have one anyway- I would like to be 10 stone. I don’t think this is unrealistic and it would mean my BMI would be around 22 which is great and very healthy. Unfortunately, the last time I weighed 10 stone was around 4 years ago now, when I was around 14. Does this mean it will take me 4 years to get this weight off? Hopefully not, it is only a weight reduction of 15lbs after all. Healthily, dieticians say you can lose 1.5lbs a week so this means I could weigh 10 stone by the 8th of November! Let’s try it.

However, even when I was 14 and younger I had an issue with the way I looked and my weight. Everyone around me was thinner than me. My main problem area has always been (and hopefully won’t always be) my stomach/gut. I don’t have a muffin top, no but I do have a layer of extra fat that I know and can feel shouldn’t be there. My thighs are quite large and so is my bottom but I don’t mind these so much. If I lose weight from them too, I will be happy regardless. My face is also quite rounded and I recently had a comment from a family member who wondered why my face had got so rounded as I got older, compared to my younger sister. This comment has left me feeling annoyed and ugly (as you can imagine). I will be discussing comments throughout my blog and ways I deal with them and ways you can too- feel free to contact me if you want to talk more on this. The way I dealt with this is to ACT and now, I am.

One issue I have with starting this now is that I am currently at home with my family and they like to have large dinners in the evening which often make me feel bloated. I am returning to university full time in a few weeks when I will be able to start my new lifestyle properly. I can prevent my family’s dinners from bloating me by eating less in the day time and exercising which is what I plan on doing, starting from today.

So my blogging officially begins today and I hope to inspire many of you and to maybe make some friends along the way, so don’t hesitate to contact me. My plan for the next few posts will be discussing the research I have done, my motivation and my personalised plan to losing these 15lbs!

I am also going to insert a poll here because I want to hear what you have to say about your body! In the comments you’re welcome to explain your answer.

Jessicana xo